You have called me to the ministry, and I cannot afford to hold on to anything that hinders that ministry. I want to follow you. I want to serve You completely. I want to serve only You. In my spirit I want this. But my flesh is weak, Father. In my flesh I am hurting, empty.
Forgive me for walking away from You, for not answering Your call all these years. I want to answer it now, and I know that my physical desire can be a stumbling block. I know You know my heart. I don't know how to yield it to You actively, but I do ask You to take it and be Lord of my desires.
I repent from my anxiousness. I choose to have my hopes in You; for nothing is impossible with You.
The following verse was read."
Like water spilled on the ground, which cannot be recovered, so we must die. But God does not take away life; instead, he devises ways so that a banished person may not remain estranged from him. (2 Samuel 14:14)