When I ask God to turn my heart, to put a new spirit in me, I am asking for something that may take time and may be painful. Is it wrong to desire something
greatly? No, not necessarily. But it is wrong to let that something take the place of God--and I do this often. To be honest, right now I do not like myself
at all and I just want to stop feeling or being aware of anything. I'm tired of pain, and I'm tired of trying and failing at everything I do.