Today I saw the doctors again. They both said everything looks good. Dr. Trese explained that I had had a piece of scar tissue running from the front to the back of my eye and that it was pulling on the retina in the area of the macula, the part of the retina which allows a person to see colors and details. The string was cut, and the retina laid back down immediately.
I was trying to think of a way to explain the concept of low vision. I still get the feeling that Dr. Heidemann thinks I want back more vision than is possible, like I want it all. I finally thought of how to put it into words. My world has been gettingsmaller and smaller, and last week it was almost gone. What I want to know is if my world can be restored. I know very well that my world is not a sighted person's world. I know that, in fact, myperception of the world would be very insignificant to the average person. But it is my world, and when I talk about getting any vision back, I am speaking in reference to my world.
Today I had my eye open a lot. I am very sensitive to light, but I know that there has been a definite improvement. If I had tears to cry, I would cry. Dr. Trese says the improvements maycontinue for several weeks or months. I am so anxious! At the same time, I don't want the time to hurry by. I want to experiencethe joy of each returning sight. I am so thankful that God has allowed me the comfort of seeing again. He could have chosen to give me a different source of comfort and to teach me to trust in Him even when I didn't get what I wanted.