January 20th, 2004

3kitties

confused: designed to given to others?


Hmmmm... I'm designed to give to others. They're designed to give to me. But I'm not designed to give to others in order that they will give to me. I'm designed to give freely. How does that fit with the concept of love tanks? God fills my love tank, but He also gives me needs because He wants to allow other people to express His love freely to me... What happens when they don't? This is part of what Jesus died for. He suffered that emptiness on my behalf.

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3kitties

end of day frustration


Today's just been an off day, and I'm trying to muster up some motivation to have a salad even though I don't feel very hungry. The fact that it's January 20 and I haven't accomplished anything with writing this month hasn't escaped me, and it's bothering me. I can't change it, and I understand and accept that. I just don't know how to recover the ground, how to change my expectations and start over.

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