It's not about me. That's the core issue lately. And I have been making it about me and about what I experience right now. Who is going to want to spend his life with me? How am I going to pay off this bill? Why can't I have a home? Well, at least I was being honest in my selfishness! Admitting all of this exposes a lot of issues. They're all sort of crashing down on me at once, and it's time to do some deep digging and let some buried things heal. David is a perceptive person, and one thing he said to me on Wednesday is that whatever is in my heart that contributed to the situation I'm in now is something that God wants to heal and it's very deep. He couldn't have been more right.
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