August 9th, 2007

I Believe

more thoughts about (mostly) the heat

Pain med insomnia ruled the night last night, and we're gearing up for yet another mid-90s day here with heat index in the mid-100s. I am lounging in bed, trying to ward off asthma attacks and working dilligently to keep my mood in check. I am not scanning books this morning. I think I need some energy conservation. I read some Star Trek fiction last night instead of frantically doing this and that. Inca decided at 4:30 A.M. that the air was cool enough and I was pain-free enough that she would purr for me. I appreciated it very much. I just wish it would have happened much earlier in the evening. I think I finally fell asleep around 5:30. It was not good sleep. Flexeril will be my friend tonight...

I have a good deal of reflective writing that I would like to do. Looking back over the past few weeks, I notice that there is not much of substance here. It has just been too hot. However, I feel like I am using the heat as an excuse to let my mind wander. Somewhere I know that this is not true at all. My mind has been busy doing Hebrew; and there is a limit to what my mind can do when its energy reserves are so low. There is a reason I no longer live in Texas or Florida. The reason is hitting me squarely in the face this week.

I read an article yesterday about rising temperatures and decreasing water amounts in the Great Lakes. I have really tried to remain objective regarding the arguments about global warming--I'm quite aware that we have really not been able to measure weather changes for very long. However, I am also acutely aware that we have not been using artificial energy sources for very long; and I am deeply concerned--fear is not an accurate word to describe my emotional state--that we are witnessing only the beginning of some very significant changes and that I must learn to live with the heat.

  • Current Music
    Inca meowing
I Believe

public benefit eligibility privatization

One of my frustrations over the past year has been the fact that I can never get in touch with my caseworker from the Indiana FSSA, the agency which handles Medicaid and food stamp benefits. I have finally learned why.

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  • Current Music
    the air conditioner, for which I am thankful