October 17th, 2007

I Believe

day before surgery


I am now caught up. Now really ahead like I wanted to be. We'll see how I do today... Perhaps I can read like a mad person and get some more work done on papers... If I am lucky, Vicodin will keep me awake instead of putting me to sleep after surgery...



Today: laundry, reading, doctor's appointment which will take a hundred years... Tomorrow: surgery center at 9:30, wait around for a hundred years, wish they would give me something while I sit there with the thing around my head to push the fluid out of my eye, tell Dad he owes me Starbucks since I was a good little patient... I can't think too much beyond this. I usually write more profoundly than this before my surgeries... For this one, I don't really have it in me right now.

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    dogs chewing on bones
I Believe

Loretta and surgery

I thought a lot about whether or not to leave Loretta at home with Alexis tomorrow or take her to the hospital with me. She does all right if I go downstairs for a while, and I think she would be fine with Alexis. However, Alexis has to leave in the middle of the day, and I don't know that being left twice would be good for Loretta's first time at home without me. I am also in an emotional space where I need stability right now, and I think that having Loretta near me might be helpful.

Fortunately, Dad offered to hold her for me. We have done this once at one of my doctor's appointments. She cried when she could hear me but not see me, but she was well-behaved. So I think the key will be her ability to see me and be near me. Tonight we will run some practice commands so that he can bring her near and she will go gently into that recovery room.

  • Current Music
    dogs chewing on bones