In one day the whole world has changed. I never thought about the possibility that we could go to war very much, and I am sure I don't take this whole thing as seriously as some people do because I don't have any close relatives who might have to go or already have gone. In a way, I wish I did. I do feel afraid, but I don't think anyone really cares. They all have boyfriends or brothers who are there or could be drafted if anyone decides to do that. Everyone sits around here in couples, and they hug and cry and stuff. But not me. I feel so lost! There is not anyone here for me in Anderson.
In a way, though, I am not afraid. It all seems so far away, like something in a book or in the past that I am not a part of and am not meant to be a part of. But in a way I want to be a part of it. I feel like the world is leaving me behind, if that's possible. I know it isn't a lot of fun to be worried about people, and really I don't know if I could handle it. But I feel like I can't relate to anyone and people think I don't care.