Life seems to be full of battles between choosing life with You or choosing death. Every situation seems to demand that we choose whether or not we will follow You. It doesn't seem as easy as just deciding one time to follow You. I guess that is what spiritual warfare is all about.
Lord, I have to admit that some of the reason I am praying for my friend is selfish. It didn't start out that way, but it has become that way. I enjoy spending time with her, and I want to be able to spend time with her. That is one reason I pray for both her healing and her growth in You. I want to have fellowship with her. But somewhere inside me, I really do want nothing but her intimacy with You. I need You to bring that part of me out so that I can pray for her effectively. I need to get my eyes off of myself and off of the results. I need to build my own relationship with You. Is it when I do this that I will be able to pray the way You want me to pray for her?