Sarah Blake LaRose (3kitties) wrote,
Sarah Blake LaRose
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music and the brain


Music is very powerful. Duh. Well, there are usually certain styles I keep in my collection that I generally like--Twila Paris, Ace of Base, Sierra, Point of Grace, etc. It is usually not a problem to find something that I like at any given moment, and it's not a problem to change to a different something. But this latest thing is weird.



It started on Saturday. I was feeling really angry and hurt, and I assumed it was about career confusion stuff. I wouldn't listen to anything but Jeni Varnadeau, and I played it over and over. I started to realize there was something in specific songs that was giving substance to what I was feeling but also to what I needed. It was the dark, angry quality in the music combined with the healing quality of the lyrics.



But I have begun to crave Jeni. In fact, every other CD I have in my possession annoys me to no end, even things that would normally soothe me. The reason for this is frightening me. I'm not sure how to put this in words. I'm going to try and hope this makes sense. It won't make as much sense as if you'd heard the particular songs, but we'll see.



Musically, the specific songs that keep playing in my head--and the songs I choose when I play the CD--are very dark and kind of unpredictable. By dark I mean one of two things. For the most part they are in minor keys, but I'm also talking about the style of guitar-playing. I can't lump these four or five songs into one group really. Each one does something completely different to me. But those somethings are new and unusual, kind of a bit scary. They talk to a part of me that I've never known existed before, a part of me that scares me. It's a part of me that feels very hopeless and out of control, angry, deeply hurt. It is common for me to get a bit stuck on a new CD, but not like this. This thing travels the spectrum of emotions, and that's why I like it. When I start feeling out of control, the first thing that comes to my mind is a certain chord progression from a certain song. I've never quite had this experience of feeling so angry and sad and unpredictable. I don't like it at all.

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