a profound thought

I've been reading through my old journal entries... I'm really seeing God working a lot of things in my life over the years as I read these... I can see how I prayed something one day and then something another day was a direct answer... So often I just wail and then go on about life and push away whatever I was wailing about and don't bother to expect Him to answer. He always does, even when I don't care to see it! How many demonstrations of His love have I missed because I've been busy trying to prove He ISN'T there instead of allowing myself to see the truth that He IS?