I slept very deeply last night, and my perspective is very different this morning. Twelve hours is a lot of work, but I AM getting it done and I WILL learn how to manage my time. I am not falling apart, and I am not losing out too much on time. The fact that I was able to take the day off yesterday is worth noting. I was not so embroiled in my work that I couldn't enjoy a day that was meant to be enjoyed.
I remember reading in What to Expect in Seminary that there is much similarity between the demands of seminary life and the demands of full-time ministry. There will be days when I am tired and don't feel up to the task, and there will be days when I feel quite up to it. So far, on most days, I have not felt so badly as I did yesterday. So perhaps I need to not be so hard on myself. I perhaps should view yesterday's writing as the product of a difficult day and not representative of my experience as a whole.
I went to bed at 9:30 last night. This morning, I woke up very early and gave myself plenty of time for breakfast, coffee, feeding animals, reading, etc. It was a good idea. Perhaps early to bed, early to rise is a wise saying...
Taking notes on the laptop is also a good idea. It does help me to stay alert in class. It's hard for me to stay alert when the professor is doing a supporting point that I am not writing about. I can't doodle in the sidelines, but with the laptop I can switch back and forth between documents and write notes while listening. I've been able to journal a side note that occurred to me but has nothing to do with class, and my notes remain uncluttered so that I don't have to take extra time to clean them up later. This is a very good strategy, and I had forgotten how well it worked. I need to get past feeling that it's "wrong." Having a working laptop is absolutely essential to my time management. On the other hand, I think that I need to somehow be responsible with my laptop maintenance without allowing it to become an issue of fear.