I finished my paper at 1:30 A.M., fought with the computer over getting it saved for about 30 minutes, and then took some much-needed time to soak in the tub, pet the cats, and read some email. I finally got into bed around 3:30. In hindsight, it was a bad move. I was very tired when I woke up this morning. I could have gone to church; but thinking about going and then coming home and cleaning and reading 50 more pages made me exhausted. I told Alexis that I knew there would be days when I needed to push through this kind of exhaustion, but I didn't think the first week of the semester was the time to do it. It's a recipe for an emotional disaster.
So even though I am very concerned about setting a precedent, I stayed home and went back to bed until 9:30. I dreamed about reading and taking notes, which tells me that the quality of my sleep could have been much better. When the notebooks just wouldn't get off the floor, I decided it must be time to wake up and do something productive.
I cleaned! My house had not been vacuumed in too long... It really does matter in terms of my breathing, and that affects my alertness. So I did it. then I took time to organize a bunch of stuff in the bathroom, fill up the med box for the week (takes 20 minutes), and take care of Meg. I still have a lot to do in the way of cleaning and getting organized, but it's better than it was. I feel better, and that's worth the worry about the precedent. Eventually, I'll figure out the routine...
Alexis asked me why I stayed up so late... The answer was that I didn't want to end up procrastinating and cramming today--and I would have ended up staying up late on a school night if I had waited. That really would have been a disaster, and I'm glad that I did it this way instead. I tried the routine of thinking that I could have been doing this on Thursday: after all, I did have the syllabus. However, I remembered that on Thursday i was still scanning the Turabian book; and I cannot scan and read. I really had no choice, and this is precisely why I am in such a rush to scan everything now and not try to do it while class is in session. It's a good call. I have five books to go, three of which are in my possession. One book I didn't include in the count--I discovered that it's available in NetLibrary, so I just need to figure out how to get an account and whether the electronic text is accessible. I need to get a better system in the future of keeping up with where I've put the books that have been scanned and those that haven't.
I finally have a few minutes to sit down and do some writing about the orientation days, which mostly means typing out the notes I took and getting them into some format that makes sense. They are mostly abbreviated words right now, and I'd rather have real reflections to read later.