I don't usually do these; but I thought the questions were especially good today.
1. What is your favorite experience in your life so far?
It is truly hard for me to pin down a particular experience as "favorite." There are many moments that I have enjoyed deeply, and I can't really raise one over the other. They all should be enjoyed in their own time and place. Some are much too private to share in this journal... Then there are moments like: sitting in a church with phenomenal acoustics, listening to 400 voices singing hymns at full volume in amazing harmony with no accompaniment (an experience I never thought I would appreciate); sitting in a Catholic church, listening as a bunch of kids shouted back and forth, "God is good," "All the time!" "All the time," "God is good!" and thinking it was so unusual for such a "high church" setting" and realizing that I must drop my preconceptions; seeing the red and brown so many feet below me as I sat in the balcony in the auditorium on campus weeks after my eye surgery and discovered that the seats below were arranged differently; petting my cat, who once never purred, as she lets out her nightly rumbles; throwing snowballs even though it feels juvenile...
2. What motivates you to keep going every day?
The thought that God has a purpose for my life, though I don't necessarily know what it is.
3. Where do you want to go in life? What do you want to accomplish?
This has always been difficult to define, especially in my adult life. The more that things have gotten in my way, the harder it is for me to define my goals and dreams. I would like to write some books and get my CD out. Those are things I can actually see myself working toward. I have no idea what I may end up doing once I'm done with graduate school. I would enjoy teaching at a university; but that still seems to be a pretty lofty goal, and at this point I can't define the type of doctoral program I want to pursue. Today, I'd really not like to think to hard about any of this.
4. Is there anything that you regret? Do you try to change it?
I regret the times when my moodiness has caused me to say hurtful things to people. I have spent years in intensive therapy to learn different skills for handling my emotions, stress, and for communicating. I'm not perfect and probably never will be; but I continue working to learn from situations where I have not done as well as I would like and to do better in the future.
5. What is your most cherished gift you have received? Why do you cherish it so much?
When I was 12 years old, someone at church challenged me to write a song and taught me how to use chord progressions. He wouldn't have thought of this as giving me a gift; but it was a gift that would last a lifetime. I can use it anytime I want to, and it never gets used up. That's why I cherish it so much.