I want to write a lot tonight, but I'm falling asleep at the keyboard. So a short summary of what I did today will have to suffice for now. I'll expand on it more in the morning.
- Got the dishes done, which was something I felt very resistant about
- Went to therapy and had a very productive session
- Got a significant amount of work done cleaning the back bedroom
- Did some research on RSS and how to use it to syndicate content on a web site
- Cooked a very yummy chili
I haven't looked at my to-do list tonight. I know I didn't finish everything, but I have a habit of either underestimating or overestimating what I think I can accomplish in a day. Looking at what I've listed here, it seems I got quite a bit done today.
My therapist and I talked about the panic attacks, and she said that the dosage of Xanax I've been prescribed shouldn't pose a threat of addiction but also that if I haven't had problems with dependency on my pain meds I should be all right in general. I do find that Xanax helps me to be much more relaxed and able to get things done when the panic attack would otherwise send me to bed. The important thing is that I take them as needed and not because I like the feeling. There are days when I feel this way naturally, so I think that's a good sign that I can use Xanax as a beneficial thing while I concentrate on charting my symptoms and finding ways to deal with stress. If I chart the Xanax usage, I think that eventually I'll find that it will go down. (Note to self: write at some point about the way I used the word think in this sentence compared to using the word hope.)
Time for bed. More tomorrow...